Life goes on

There really isn't much going on. I will finish my radiation tomorrow. Except for some radiation esophagitis, and a small area on my anterior chest wall at the left sternoclavicular joint that got burned, I have had no complications. Just the daily grind of going for the daily treatments.

Work has not been part-time. Most weeks I have put in 40 hours. It has been difficult to work primary care one day per week. Also, I have not had 2 days off from the clinic, except for a few weekends. Not what I expected out of part-time. Convenient care offered me 24 hours, with the days consecutive, so that I will have 4 days off in a row, except for the occasional weekend. I think I will be much happier with this situation.

I will start my Femara this weekend. Didn't want to start until I was done with the radiation. I so hope that I won't get any bad side effects. The hot flashes have started to improve, really would not like to have them get worse.

Got in "trouble" with Provena for accessing my own medical records on their computer system. This was from December after I had my biopsies. My punishment will be loss of access. I am not upset. I maintain that for my confidentiality, it would be much better for me to access my own records, than to have other people handling my records. Also, I was making sure that I had the copies for SIU Springfield's Breast Cancer Center. Blah, blah, blah.

I am so missing Steve. I had a dream about him the other night. It just seemed so real. I have no one who understands me like he did. I try to talk with Carol every week. She is having a very difficult time. Steve would want me to help her as much as I can. I told Carol that Steve told me after Joe was killed that he did not want me going through this without him. I don't want Carol to go through this grief without me. Steve would want this.